I’ve just joined today as I’m really struggling.
On 17th February I lost my partner of 25 years at home I tried to resuistate him & the paramedics tried but it was too late
I’m a full time carer for my mum who needs 24 hour care, I had to go back home the next day to care for her again.
A few weeks after my eldest brother was diagnosed with a rare T4 nasal cancer which he’s still continuing to battle.
Then on 13th may I lost my beautiful little brother.
I’m struggling so much now I’ve not had any time to remotely process anything before something else happened.
I have never felt anything like this before I feel so alone and terrible lost right now with so many emotions I don’t know what to do with, I’ve been trying to suppress them but I know it’s working. Nothing prepares you for so much loss of loved ones grief is truly horrendous. Sorry if my post was long 
Oh @Poppy77
I’m so sorry for your losses and your ongoing troubles.
Please keep posting on here, it does really help, and it really doesn’t matter if they’re long or short.
I really don’t know what to say that will help, except we’re all here to listen whenever you want.
We all understand, we’re all grieving, all at different stages.
Take care and look after yourself
Sending a big hug
X x
Yes it is, so so lonely.
But it dies help to talk to others on here.
You can say what you want, rant if you like. No one will judge. Just support you.
All you can do is take one day at a time. Have you any friends or family you can reach out to?
Love and hugs
Liz x x
So sorry for your losses, that sounds like so much to cope with in a short space of time. It is incredibly hard work being a carer too, not just physically but mentally and emotionally draining. I hope you can find some comfort
@Liro I lost a lot of friends when I gave up work to look after my mum, she’s sever brain damage, & on my days off I was going home to my partner & to rest but now it’s changed so drastically.
When people ask me I just seem to say I’m fine as people have there own trouble & worries.
@Eponine It’s just so exhausting is grief and not knowing what to do, & been a carer is hard I’m 47 I’ve looked after my mum since 2016 I gave up work as she needs 24 hour care she’s sever brain damage from a massive brain hemorrhage she had. I just feel incredibly lost & lonely
Do you think some counselling would help? Or perhaps you have a friend you can chat to over a coffee? I know finding the time and energy for these things is half the battle
Yes it feels like a long wait doesn’t it? I hope you can get some comfort from chatting to others on here in the meantime. I hope it does help you when it comes round
Thank you for the kindness 