Hi all.tenpin…hope ur all well…as can be.went to first bereavement group meet tnite.only a small group.for now.5of us.but it went well.emotional for all of is.but it felt good.in a way. to meet people and talk openly.il keep going.apart from that tho i really hope ur all being the best you can be.x
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Hi. O I’m so glad you went. I did say at first it could be emotional. But you’re with like minded people all going through the same thing. And like you said it felt good. I believe that’s because a part of you realises your not on your own. It does help. Please keep going. Xx
I had my second session yesterday, cried alot again and told her how much I miss him and how angry I feel at the hospital for not doing anything, and all they had to do was a biopsy.
@Poppet1973
If it helps keep going. At least your getting your feelings out which is always a good thing. I’ve found it helps me and I can say alot more than I can say to other people. Also a good cry with no one looking at me uncomfortable and judgemental. Hope it helps. Xx
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At the moment I don’t feel like its helping but will keep going. Ive got an appointment with the dr next Thursday for a chat, he was dealing with my husband so he knows whats going on.
@Poppet1973
All I can say is anything that helps. Give your counselling a little longer. It was about the 3rd time I went that I actually felt it was helping. And hopefully you can have a good chat with your doctor. I got to see my own last week as I’ve been having to see others. While chatting she was the one that started crying!!! X
Ive got another session in 2 weeks so let’s see how it goes.
Things like this makes me miss him even more, as I would tell him how it went.
@Poppet1973
You can still tell him love. I speak to my man all the time. I imagine what he’d say back to me or how he’d give me one of his looks as if to say shut up love. He hears me. I believe that. Yours will too. Xx
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Hi. I know exactly how you feel. During the day I’m better as I’m used to him being at Christie’s and I work but evenings are awful. As soon as I close my blinds, I start to cry. I miss him so so much 
Debsy70. Tenpin…i totally agree the evenings are worst.close the blinds.lock up…and then thats it .the lighter nights make it even worse.i wll keep going because if nothing else it gets me out for a while…iv not tried 1-1 as yet…not sure about it.take care all
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If only tears could bring them back to us eh !! We would all be reunited by now. People keep saying it gets better but I just can’t see it myself. I will miss him forever.
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I hope it does get better as the way I feel things can’t get any worse.
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I just want to go back to this time last year where I was happy
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Yeah I keep saying the same. If only we could go back in time
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I agree with you all. If we could go back in time. You know I would give my life for even just 1 more minute with him. To hold to touch. I’ve cried oceans. Some days I think I’ve got no tears left then here I go again. Miss him x
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All I do every night is look at our photos of all the happy times. I look at his handsome face and the tears start to fall. Wishing he was still here with me, planning our holidays, our days out and the rest of our lives together. I feel like my life ended when I watched him slipped away silently in my arms.
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I read his texts messages when he was in the hospital and the videos he sent me last summer when he was fixing the house just so I can hear his voice every day, the only thing that I can’t have but desperately need is to feel his arms around me and to breathe in the smell of him. I miss his kisses.
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OMG I do exactly the same. I’m just sat here crying again. This sadness is unbearable isn’t it
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Yes, I miss him so much, ive been crying on and off all day, its nice to talk to people who understand
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Yes it is. Especially as we feel like we are the only people in the world who feel so sad and alone.
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