I lost my 32 year old son on 2/3/2025. We still have no cause yet.
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Sending hugs I’m here also after loosing my son last Saturday 
he has to have a post Mortem to find out why he passed away. 3 week horrendous wait
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My son had a post mortem and they couldn’t find the cause so the most horrendous thing they have done is to take his heart and brain out to do further examinations so now we are left waiting. Losing my son so sudden is the worst pain I have ever felt. My emotions go from anger to crying non stop. I have no idea how will ever learn to live again.
Hugs to all going through this.
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My son’s heart and brain were also taken. I found it very upsetting although I can understand that further tests had to be done. We went ahead with the funeral anyway, otherwise it would have been a long wait. We were told mid February and mid March for the results of the tests, but are still waiting. The ambulance crew apparently said it was a heart attack but the post mortem was inconclusive. I don’t know whether getting the results will help in any way. I suspect not.
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Yesterday was a slightly better day, today not so much. I woke from a dream where my son had passed and for about one second thought it was a dream until it hit me that it was real. I have constant crushing pain. My heart is shattered.
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I’m so sorry to hear this. Unfortunately waking in the morning with the jitters - almost a panic attack - is something that a lot of us are going through. I find I almost forget what has happened whilst asleep and then suddenly remember anew when I wake up. I am a few months further along than you, but it still happens. As for learning to live again, for me it’s just an existence and going through the motions. I don’t expect to feel happy ever again. I am so sorry you are in such agony too.
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I feel I should introduce myself and tell you my story.
I am 59 and mum to Steve 32 and Craig 29,
Steve has had epilepsy since being a baby.
He has been fit free for about 2 years when he suddenly started to have several fits a day. Despite taking him to hospital on numerous occasions nothing was done. He passed away on the 2/03/25 and we still don’t know know why. I suspect Sudep but obviously have to wait for the post mortem results.
This is completely finishing me off. Wondered if anyone can help how I can deal with this.
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Such a sad story. I am so sorry for the loss of your Steve. Perhaps you will gain a tiny sliver of comfort from knowing why your son died. Our son’s post mortem results were inconclusive, so we are now waiting for the results of toxicology and histology tests. We were told they would arrive mid February and mid March, but these dates have passed and we still wait. My heart skips a beat when the post arrives. I can’t offer any words of comfort, as losing a child is sheer hell. I’m sure, like me, you have never known such grief. The loss of parents and older relations is bad enough, but this is far, far worse. Our nightmare began when our son died unexpectedly at the end of November. We didn’t discover he had passed away until 4 days later, because the police couldn’t find our contact details in his flat. The shock was indescribable and it was like being hit by a sledgehammer. We sat in total numbness for days trying to absorb what had happened. The tears then started and for me they haven’t stopped. I suppose the grief has softened a little over the last 4 months, in that I can now speak about my son and see his photo on the wall without being completely overwhelmed with sorrow. Tears are always lurking below the surface though. That ache to be with him, to see him and hold him is constantly there. Posting my emotions on this forum has helped a lot just to ease some of the tension and to know that others understand. That is the only advice I can give - to talk about what happened and describe how you feel. I hope you will derive some comfort from finding others here who understand the terrible journey you now find yourself taking. Although we can’t take away your pain, we can share it with you.
My heart goes out to you for what you have and are still going through.
It is 5 weeks today since my son passed away. We held his funeral last Monday despite the coroners still having his brain and heart.
It feels as though the pain gets worse everyday if that is even possible.
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Sue I’m so sorry for your loss . I lost my 31 year old daughter in February and my life has been shattered. I have no joy in the world any more don’t want to do anything go anywhere just exist that’s how I feel . I miss her so much as she still lived at home . Most days I sob a lot it’s not getting any easier as it’s just the reality now I think that I will never have a hug text or conversation with her again . My phone will ring sometimes and I think who’s that is it Lucy that was my daughter then I remember she is no longer here . It’s just an awful constant ache I have for her . No one understands unless you have lost a child yourself xx
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I know how you feel, tragically I lost my son last May, he was 30. Fit and healthy. Collapsed early hours and didn’t make it. We are still waiting for result as all family having heart tests now. I can’t believe it and can’t believe this can happen. My son is married and had a 1 year old and was expecting their baby when we lost him. I hate life now. It’s a constant struggle to keep living. I’m so sorry you are here.
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I’m so sorry Lisa for the loss of your son . It destroys our lives for ever nothing can ever repair this huge hole they have left behind . I am such a different person now uninterested in life going forward . Someone called to see me this morning and said to me Lucy that was my daughter loved life and it was about time I started to life my mine again and enjoy it . They have no idea the grief and absolute pain I am in . I had to hold back my words x
They have no idea, as if you can just ‘move on’ and live life like it was. What would that say about our children! We love them so very much that we can hardly breathe let alone ‘live’. At 30/31 they should have been living a good life and we were watching over with pride and happiness that they were. That’s what we still want!
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It’s so heartbreaking isn’t it to loose your child never mind how old they are . We have to learn to live this new life without them which is the worst feeling ever . Lucy lived at home so her car is still in the drive her phone in the kitchen her bedroom untouched breaks me every day x
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