Hello i’m new to this group ive decided this year to try and find myself as since losing my son in 2015 at the age of 18 i dont know who i am i changed the moment i left the hospital without him and it wasn’t by choice for nearly 10 years i have just existed i haven’t lived i have 3 other grown up children and soon to be 6 grandchildren but there’s always that missing piece ive have never accepted What happen to my son im there to support my husband and children 100% but i feel so alone and dont like to let them know im struggling but this year i need to give my self some self care but just dont know how xx
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Hi Neeny, I lost my son coming up to 8 years on the 15th March, I will never get over losing him! I miss him so very much! He was 35,tomorrow is his birthday, I live alone!
so sorry for your loss i feel your pain 
it’s so so hard isn’t it life seems to be going at 100 mph and i’m just stood still everyone tells me how strong i am but i don’t feel strong and i don’t know where i get the strength from just to get through a day xx Happy Heavenly Birthday to your son for tomorrow xx
Thankyou so much Neeny! It’s horrendous isn’t it! I don’t know how I’ve got through all these years without him! He lived with me and his bedroom is the same as he left it! I’m so so sorry for your loss too Neeny! Sending you lots of love! How can our beautiful boys be gone?
i know it’s soul destroying i have all my sons clothes and all his belongs etc i’ve tried to look through them but it’s heartbreaking so they are all put away some days i find it easy to look at photos and videos other days i just cry it should never of happened and yes your right our boys should be here with us enjoying there lives i always wonder what if xx 