Thank you to all of those who replied to my post. It feels good to know that there is someone put there who is understanding and experienced any form of hardship and heartache…a terrible time for anyone. I am still not sure where to start with this, as I am already filling up with emotion.
I met my wife to be in 1991 and there was an instant bonding between us. I was living in Wiltshire and not in the Midlands where I live now. It was after some 3 years that I moved to the Midlands to be with my wife to be. The distance between us was never an issue and we would visit each other every other month.
As time passed we grew more and more in love and finally I moved to the Midlands so that we could be together.
We married in 1994 and we set out on our journey together in marriage. I could not believe my luck in meeting this lady and still bless myself for spending a wonderful time with her.
We didn’t have children and spent our life together, with our pets being very happy.
I lost my wife, to cancer, after some years and during ‘Covid lockdown’. This was a shock to my system, as it happened too fast, with no warning. This experience for me, or anyone who may have lost their loved ones during this time was devastating in every way. I felt as if I was the only person going through this emotional and stressful time. However, it was very much the same for everyone else losing a loved one. With all the ‘restrictions’ it made everything so difficult contacting the relevant authorities and trying to cope.
I was so alone and confused that I was unsure of what the future would bring. My health suffered and my thoughts made no sense. I lost weight and my motivation had virtually disappeared.
I spent my time alone and wondered what will happen in the future. Although it is nearly 3 years since I lost my loved one I am still grieving and can’t seem to stop crying every day…for one reason or another…loving memories, anniversaries, songs, TV programmes, romantic gestures etc.
I feel I need to stop now as I am getting upset. Once again thank you to all of you have have taken the time to answer my post it means a lot. Thank you.
@Patrick2
I am so sorry and my heart goes out to you.
It must have been so awful and stressful for you having to cope with the loss of your wife during the height of Covid. Due to the situation it sounds like you didn’t get the chance to grieve properly for your lovely wife. Don’t worry about crying, just let your emotions come out and now allow yourself to grieve.
I lost my husband nine months ago and I still cry every day.
I can’t say it gets better, just a little easier as the time goes by.
It was nice to read your story of meeting and falling in love with your wife. It sounds like you were very happy together and I bet if she could read what you have just written she would be so proud.
I know how hard this journey is, as does everyone on this forum. Please keep reaching out as there is a lot of support here. Take each hour at a time and just let your feelings out.
Take care and sending you strength and hugs xx
Thank you Alir. May you too find comfort within the forum. Everyone sounds very understanding and supportive. Bless you.
Hello
It is nine months since David died now. Missing so much how it was.
Yesterday wentvto one of the paces we used go to. Was wondering if he was looking down.
It was nice to be there with our son and grandsons.
Memories were everywhere but I was pleased ghe little one was excited.
My wife passed in April at home beside me she was only 47 she fought and beat cancer in 2016 but side effects of treatment left her being diagnosed with one illness after another but she still kept going I know myself I done everything I could to bring her back but after 1 hour 16 minutes of paramedics trying she was gone I am constantly fighting with myself as to whether or not I missed something or didn’t do something or did something wrong and sometimes just burst into tears other times I feel nothing but I always love speaking about her I just really don’t know what I’m doing or how I should be acting as it feels like I’m living in a nightmare and I just can’t wake from it
Hi. It’s two years since my husband died. I also still cry every day
We met at 16 and he died when we were 59. So he was the only life I knew. People say it gets easier .I haven’t found that it has. I know I have just learned to carry my grief with me .maybe one day it will.or maybe this is it for me .All I do know is whatever way you are feeling , it’s the right way for you to feel . Our grief is unique, the way our love for our partners is unique.xtake carex
Thank you 
Daddybear
Yes I think I should have done more too.
He was struggling so was I and I can’t change what I didn’t do. Wish I could. Been trying to slowly do things. Miss his company when alone like this at the weekend and we used to sit under the tree. Used to be sharing news and food. Went so many places was with him a lifetime. From at college at the same time to grandparents and all the problems and stuff in between.
Certainly was in sickness and in health for better and worse and for richer and for poorer we had it all. Knew all struggles and achievements. Now left with evidence. His certificates, cuttings from newspapers of. Long gone days playing cricket, dances when we were young, everything our kids did