I’m really struggling a week ago. I lost my stepdad who was practically my other dad as he’s been in my life for 22 years at the age of 25, you don’t think you’ll ever lose one of your parents. How do you deal with that a such a young age.
What makes it harder is it was really sudden and out of nowhere and we still don’t know yet what happened. I don’t know how to deal with this and the fact I didn’t get to say goodbye. I have so many emotions And I don’t know what to do. I’m not sleeping or eating, I can’t bear to be alone otherwise my anxiety flares up badly.
I have so much guilt, anger, numbness and sadness I just can’t cope with it all. Everyone tries to cheer me up or say remember his life not his death but it’s so hard to not think about how he won’t be there to witness all the big events in life and make more memories with! I just need people to understand that it’s okay for me to feel all this right now and that I can cry right now, that I don’t need to smile and can just let all my emotions out how they need to.
I just miss him so much…
