Hello Good Reader
This is my story
Last year I lost two of the close people I will every love 1 was my darling mother a conventional loss and 1 was my beautiful adult daughter not a conventional loss but a loss never the less
Last Feb my beautiful 25 year old daughter was driving home from a adventure weekend. She went into cardiac arrest and no one knows why. Her down time was 30 mins from the time they got the call.
ICU managed to get her heart going again but she had a hypoxic brain injury and now has severed brain damage. My daughter doesnt even know who I am. So I mourn the loss of the daughter I once had. A couple of months later my mum and my best friends died from liver cancer. We took her home as was her wish but she had severe jaundiced and died in agony due to an error with her medication. A year on and my life has stood still. It is very difficult trying to support three children who are also suffering until you experience loss you dont know what its like, I feel like life isnt real anymore. My best friend is now isolation as that is the only place for any relief. I cannot read listen to music watch telly films everything is too painful. It is very difficult to talk to anyone about what is going on and I know that is done to me. I am in self imposed isolation I cant see anyway forward. I dont understand and I am in despair I would appreciate any response Thank you kindly