Loss of a grandparent

Hi everyone. I’m new to this type of thing but I’m completely lost so have nothing to lose. I lost my Grandad on 17/06 last year, he was absolutely everything to me, and I mean, my everything.

The problem I’m facing is jealousy from family over mine and my Grandad’s relationship. I was always his favourite.

I’m bonding with my Grandma now more than ever, we’ve always been close but I’ve always steered more to my Grandad. The main issue I’m facing is not being able to stop thinking about him 24/7 to the point I’m having panic attacks. They say time is a healer but I’m not finding it easier at all. Infact my relationship with my Grandma is suffering because I can’t visit her without leaving in floods of tears. I’ve spoken to family but don’t think they fully understand because they are also still grieving in their own way. He was life, he was everything, my heart is forever broken and I’d love some guidance as to how to go on knowing he’s no longer a physical presence. I just cannot fathom life without him by my side x

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Hello @DerryF ,

I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling so lost. I’m so sorry to hear about your grandad. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.

I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support, but I wanted to share a few Sue Ryder resources with you that might be helpful.

You might also want to have a read of this Sue Ryder Article - Losing a grandparent. Sue Ryder Grief Guide

I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.

Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.

Take care,