My big sister passed away on the 27th of July 2023 at 28 years old. We found out 6 days later when she was found. I went to sleep at 7pm for my night shift at 2am on Thursday 3rd august 2023, I am woken by my mum in bits, as soon as I hear my sister name I knew what had happened, police were downstairs. I thought it was dreaming, I haven’t been to work since and I’m dreading going back next week. Still to this day I’m struggling to actually believe that she is not on this earth anymore. I feel I am never going to be ok.
She was a drug addict so had little contact the last few years but as a family we did all we could to try help her, it has been horrible seeing drugs slowly getting the better of her. I saw her last year when I was working my old job, she came in as she knew I worked there, if I had known that would be the last time I saw her properly I would’ve hugged her so much tighter.
Rest in peace Chloe, you will be missed by so many people. Sleep tight my beautiful sister
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are struggling to believe that your sister is gone. I’m so sorry to hear about your big sister. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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This is so sad for you and your family. It is heartbeaking to lose someone so young and also feels so painful when the loss is connected with drugs. I lost my son due to a bad reaction to drugs and i feel your pain. I imagine Chloe is proud of her little sister and wishes that this hadnt happened. Maybe you could tell her, ( i talk to Elliott my boy even though he is dead ) or you could write a letter that you wished you couldve hugged her when you last saw her. I think thats the hardest bit just wishing we could hold our loved ones. As time passes it gets easier xxx i do hope that you are kind to yourself and look after yourself in memory of Chloe. Lots of love Lynne xx