I’m sitting alone in my living room and it’s New Year’s Eve. 9 weeks ago my only son tragically died of a brain tumour, he was 36 , single and lived in Amsterdam. He started getting headaches which gradually got worse. We told him to go to the doctor which he did and was told to come back in 2 weeks time for a scan. But 3 days later he felt really unwell and had a seizure. He was in bed on his own , vomited and chocked , his girlfriend found him but his organs had been denied oxygen for too long and he passed away in hospital. There’s now a massive void in my life. We had to clear his flat which he worked so hard for, was heartbreaking. How am I supposed to get on with my life when I’ve got no interest in anything, and no purpose in life
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Hello Bluebird 1,
I’m so sorry to hear about your son.
I lost mine 13 weeks and 5 days ago, also 36.
There is thread loss of son 27, where all of are struggling.
Have a look and talk to us there so you can share your pain with others mothers who have lost our precious child. X
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I’m am so sorry for your loss and would like to say it will get easier,but from my experience it doesn’t.My son died eight years ,coming up to nine ,ago and it’s as hard now as it was then to be honest.The only thing I can say is that although I have little interest in the future ,I have learnt to take each day as it comes and try to support the rest of my family , although the missing him will never go away.
Thank you for your honesty, I hope you find peace. It’s not right that we should outlive our children.
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im so sorry to hear you loss i lost my 19 year old son one month off being 20
I’m very sorry to hear about your tragic loss, sometimes comforting words can soothe the pain but it will never take away the sense of loss. As I write these words I can hear my wife crying from downstairs which we both have done off and on all day , we’ve had ok days but today was a rough day. Stay strong.
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Hi bluebird im sad for your loss i lost my beautiful boy sam age 25 to cancer 8 months ago… he was only ill 4 months and gone .bang life changed forever .it is so very wicked .but i now reliaze im not the only one .time hasnt made it better just longing that sam will walk through the door .my thoughts are with you. Come on say anything you want on here .it gives me a feeling im not so alone love zoe xxx
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So sorry to hear about your son .have you lost him recently. My thoughts are with you .always here zoe x
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Hi Zoe, words are futile in our situation, you just have to try and get by day after day. I feel your pain and you feel worthless. When I wake up in the morning until it’s time for bed I feel a great black cloud over my head which leaves me feeling shattered although I haven’t done anything. Have you tried bereavement counciling, I’m starting it soon, hopefully it will ease the pain . You are in my thoughts, take care.
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