Hi Sallyswift,
Welcome to the Sue Ryder Online Community. I’m so sorry to hear about the death of your ex-partner, who you had started seeing again, and that you feel that no one understands your grief. Your grief is completely valid and natural, even though you had split in the past - he was clearly a very important part of your life, and you will also be grieving what could have been if you had had more time to rebuild the relationship.
Some people use the term ‘disenfranchised grief’ to mean grief that may not be socially accepted or understood, often due to the nature of the relationship - and the loss of an ex can be included in this. Here is a web page about disenfranchised grief, which you might find it helpful to look at: https://whatsyourgrief.com/disenfranchised-grief/
We also had another user posting on this site last week about the death of her ex-husband - perhaps you might find it helpful to read and reply to what she’s written? You can find her post here: https://support.sueryder.org/community/coping-bereavement/loss-ex-husband
If there’s anything I can help with, or you have any questions about this site, you can contact me on online.community@sueryder.org.
Priscilla
Community Manager