I am so sorry. My son died on the 28th October 2024, he was 28 years old and had a brain tumour which he battled for almost three years. His funeral is this Friday and I am dreading it. How old was your daughter? x
My daughter was 56yrs young l knew that would lose her but thought I had a bit more time ( we were planing a trip round Australia) but I guess God decided she couldn’t stay any longer. Her lungs were not working then Covid got her. I am not sure if I will ever " get over " losing her each day is a struggle. But I try.
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I’m so sorry about your son. I think the funeral was actually easier to bear because you are surrounded by so much love for your child, often from people you don’t know directly. I’m sure it will bring you comfort. My daughter was 35, strong and full of plans for the future. The pain is different now from that first shock. I hope Friday goes smoothly for you all. Hugs 
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My daughter was 36 and her funeral was a week ago. I got through the day on autopilot but now the enormity of the void she has left is crushing me. I am crying myself to sleep each night and constantly going over her last few days. I am a facade of coping but underneath it I am so not. How do I go on without her?
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I understand exactly how you feel. You get through the funeral because you have to and you’re surrounded by the friends of your daughter. Afterwards you’re right the enormity of the void hits you. We get through this one day at a time. There’s good days and there’s bad. I lost my 35 year old daughter 6 months ago. I still cry, I still miss her and I’m dreading Christmas. But she told me I had to have all the fun for her - I’ll never be able to do that but I’m trying to make her proud by carrying on the best I can.
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Your pain is so raw so as you said crushing my girl has only been gone 4 months and so I do understand how you are feeling. Sadly thee is no answer as to how you go on with out her I ask God that every day but so far no answer except I wake up to a new day and do the best I can. Just don’t push yourself give your heart and your soul time to learn how to become the new you without your girl. I believe that by living the best I can I am honouring her love cause although my girl had children she is of me and therefore whilst there is a me her memory her everything lives on. I pray that your pain eases and that you find a little peace within you. Someone is always on line somewhere in the world if you ever need to talk Take care be safe
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I’m soo sorry for all of u having to go thru this
Today I went to a light a candle event at st Christopher’s hospice. It was sooo sad to see so many people losing loved ones. I lost my daughter Kerri to cancer aged 27. She first got diagnosed at 7 and spent the next 20 yrs fighting. She was in remission aged 11 but then it came bk. I was her carer and spent most of my time helping and fighting for her. It’s been just over 8 months and it’s sooo hard. Everyday I wake up and I miss her. Every time I think of her my eyes fill up. Everything reminds me of her. I feel lost. My other daughter found out she was pregnant with twin girls and Kerri was adamant she was going to be around to meet them. She got to spend 6 months with them. People say it’s early days but they don’t understand how low I feel. She would be so upset that I’m feeling like this but I can’t help it. Losing a child is the worst but life’s crap doesn’t stop coming. I feel so tired. People look at me and think I’m ok but I’m not. No one understands unless u been there.
Sending u all lots of love
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Hello,
I too lost my daughter. It has been 3 years since she passed. We as mothers fight so hard to keep them with us. We brought them into the world and would give our life up for them.
It does get more bearable as time goes on. You realise that others are suffering with grief. I have found that l have become even closer to my son and niece.
I realise that they need me more than ever. Please enjoy your daughter and grandchildren.
My son does not want children so l will never be a grandmother. You are blessed and l feel happy that your daughter met them.
I can now look back and enjoy all the special memories.
Look after yourself.x
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I’m soo sorry for your loss
It’s hard watching ur children go thru treatment and having to constantly reassure them that it’s ok
We feel it every time they r sick or ill
Sometimes I have to accept that it’s going to be hard and do something different
I go and sit and talk to her at her grave
It helps
Or try to keep busy maybe volunteer or something if u r able to
Being in ur own u will feel it more
My local hospice is having a dinner for those that r there or those that have lost someone
Helps to be with people who understand
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I feel so sad for you to have watched your girl fight as hard as she did, to have spent time with her neices must have lifted her spirits no end. then to lose the battle that must have been heartbreaking for you and your family. Life does go on and as women we seem to be able to do what has to be done, that is what we present to the outside world but on the inside we are an absolute mess I know I am I am floundering, I go to sleep crying and wake up crying my girl has only been gone since July but it seems like a lifetime ago that I held her in my arms. When she passed I tried to lift her up so I could take her home and make her better but I couldn’t the hands that were suppose to protect her were bloody useless, I understand that I couldn’t but it was not for the want of trying. My beautiful girl left behind her 3 children youngest being 20 and her very first grandchild, As her mother I am a broken shell of who I once was but I rise every morning and try to be the best I can, I know that time will help ease the pain but right now I am a lost soul.I pray that you find peace and know that you are not alone, We all must grieve in our own way and our own time be gentle with yourself.
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I feel I am living a double life. On the outside I go about doing what I always did,taking care of my grand children,doing the shopping etc. on the inside I am a mess. Doing guilty crying on my own, constantly thinking of my daughter. This is awful, it has been a month and I feel I am stuck but everyone has moved on.
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It is hard no doubt about that but please don’t do guilty crying if you need to cry cry those around you need to understand that you have just lost part of you a rather large part of you and you are a grieving mother. I agree though with the double life there is the public face then the real face. I now have learnt though that bottling it up and only crying when I am alone is detremental to my health my well being. Please let your tears fall when they need to it is part of your grieving. How I wish that I could find the right words to help you but just know like I have said before you are not alone.
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