Hi all I lost my grandson aged 3 10 years ago to leukaemia due to complications from chemo … very sudden and unexpected I’ve experienced overwhelming guilt that as a grandparent I couldn’t save him and also guilt that I couldn’t save my daughter the trauma of losing him I still think of him every day and have really bad dreams sometimes the age he was when he died and sometimes the age he would have been so most days I wake up feeling exhausted low and tearful and struggle to get through the day my life has changed in so many ways since losing him I find I can’t talk to anyone that I still find it hard every day to live without him as it’s been so many years everyone thinks I’m fine but I hide how I really feel but really I find everyday a struggle and still cry most days basically my grief of losing him consumes my life my marriage broke down as our grief pulled us apart any advice I would appreciate thank you
I’m so sorry for the loss of your grandchild, @Louisestafford - that is devastating. It sounds like grief for him has had such a huge impact on your life.
I’m sure someone will be along to share their thoughts. But I wanted to share our video on complicated grief with you. Complicated grief is when grief doesn’t seem to change or shift at all. In complicated grief, you can find yourself ‘stuck’, perhaps unable to feel sad or cry, or perhaps you feel too sad to manage your day-to-day life.
Talking to a professional can help you tell the difference between grief and complicated grief, and they’ll be able to direct you to the right services as a result. It may be a good idea to speak to your GP about your grief.
Please keep reaching out and take care,
Seaneen
Hello
I lost my grandson 15 months ago. He died in a car crash. I think of him every day too. My daughter is in a bad way as he was her only son. Everything she does is about Luke. She has made a commemoration at the side of the road where he died. She has put flowers, pictures and bits and bobs around there. Life goes on, but it is not the same. If anything, it is getting worse as time goes by.
I have a joined a bereavement coffee morning. It is nice, (is that the right word?) to speak to others, Unfortunately, there are only a couple there who have lost their children, most have lost their partners.
I am sorry that your marriage has broken down. Grief is so consuming. Take care x