Oh dear thats sad 
life is so unfair but st least you havent got awful kids like mine … x
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oh no! losing an animal tough! Grief comes with that too! so sorry, they been part of the family Cx
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Nearly 6 weeks now and still cant believe he actually gone! All happened too fast to get head around! Tony always said “something’s got to get you” but my goodness when it does it takes some coping with! sometimes I wish I didnt wake up in the morning! should be easing by now surely?! Funeral in two weeks - goodness knows how I will be after that! Trying not to spend too much time staying with kids as have to pick pieces up myself somehow!! sending love xx
Does anyone else keep going over and over events leading up to demise? Seems daft really as suffering for them over, but for those left behind the questions remain “could I have done this or that?” In our case could I have cared for him at home? Head and heart thing here , head says probably not, heart says would it have made a difference to grieving process? Whole thing just heartbreaking isnt it?
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Yeh you do go over it again and again if i had done this or that - they call it the "what if " stage … i still think about it sometimes too … a year on but at beginning it is much more intense … x
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Yeh it does and youre right part of family …i had to put my dog called ben to sleep at 16 because his back legs went … 2 days before my husbands funeral … i think.i was so numb but i did go get a new puppy a month later as could not stand the quietness in the house xx
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@debs I still have another cat . He is more of a home boy . I don’t want another kitten . I can’t take any more heartache
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I think one of the worst things about bereavement is the realisation one responsible for everything now - great support from family and friends but ultimately buck stops here and HAVE to get on with it!!! xx
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Yeh thats true … its very hard being responsibke for everything yourself and having nobody to bounce ideas off and support you in what youre doing … my mum said friends become more important when youre by yourself and thats really true i think … my friendships mean so much to me now x
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so true Debs - a friend who lost her husband two weeks before Tony just left after a visit! Wehave so much in common and similar experiences. He was given 5 years after prostate cancer diagnosis but actually had 6!! She agrees noone understands about grief untll it affects you personally! Another friend who lost husband earlier in 2023 went away to York for Christmas by herself rather than spend with family!!! We not alone C x
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Another morning, another day! Mornings worst for me - what about others? Will grieving ever end? So sad xx
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I agree; mornings are so difficult. I think that just getting up and making a brew is a challenge some days. Since Alan passed away before Christmas I have been struggling to sleep ( not at all some nights 
to the Samaritans ) and then pushing myself to ‘keep busy’ during the day. A punishing schedule to keep the tears from flowing. Anyway, yesterday I just couldn’t do it so I just stayed home, ate rubbish and binge watched bargain hunt haha. It was great! Back to my ‘to do list’ today but I think I will allow myself to have some downtime too. I think there has been an element of proving to people that I am coping. But really, it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks does it. I also started a book yesterday; ‘ you are not alone’ by Cariad Lloyd. Really good; she totally gets it. And it actually made me laugh out loud!
I applaud everyone here just for getting up and hanging in there. We are all amazing!!!
I hope your day has some good in it, however small x
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Hi Cynthonia
Know what you mean about having the responsibility for everything, sometime its just so overwhelming. Its good to know that other people feel the same. Hope you are feeling ok and things start to improve. xx
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