Hi all I am new here and I just wanted to see what peoples experiences were like with grief Councelors or group counselling sessions were like, I’m not sure which I would benefit from.
I will tell you my backstory (long) the whole situation is hard in its self.
My mum has lived in Turkey for the last 7 years with my dad, me and my family tried to go over every year or mum would visit us. We went out on the 19th of July for 10 days, had a great time, trips and quality time together. Mum complained of a stomach ache but said she had friends who were suffering with a stomach bug so put it down to that, the day before we left the pains got worse she nearly collapsed in the street so after we left at 10am the next morning (Monday) she went to the doctors and got tablets for suspected UTI.
On Friday morning my dad called me and said mum had seizures through the night so rushed her to hospital and they put her in a coma as it was safer for her. They pumped her with fluids and antibiotics while she was out and started to bring her round on the Tuesday, I spoke to her Thursday morning she was very groggy but asked how the kids were then left as she needed the loo.
Got a phone call from dad Friday morning they put her back in the coma Thursday night as she was in agony and they feared a seizure again, then Friday night I got the dreaded call she had passed.
It was a rupture in her intestine that lead to heart failure 
Now on top of all that because she lived in a Muslim country they wanted the funeral Saturday (the next day!) my dad managed to talk them into waiting till Monday, so I flew out with my aunty on Sunday and got there in time.
The funeral was horrible compared to a uk funeral, they carted her up the hill to the cemetery on the mountain (beautiful view) in what looked like a makeshift hearse, basically a van with a motor on the back to load coffins in. The coffin was no better than ply wood, no songs or words spoken, they asked all the guests if they wanted to help fill the hole, some did but I couldn’t bring myself to. One of mum’s friends said the Lord’s Prayer and we left, a few days later we went back up and they had put literal breeze blocks around her grave. It broke my heart.
We have added a fence and stones for now but can’t do anything big for 12 months until the earth settles
Then I had to get on a plane and feel like I just abandoned her in the mountains alone.
I am heart broken from the loss but I feel the whole situation has destroyed me.
Thank you.
Emma x
