Hiya, first time posting, I’m a new member, my name is Dianne. I’m trying to find someone who has gone or going through a similar position has myself.
My daughter passed away on the 25/01/20. She was Down Syndrome 36 and lived with me all her life, she didn’t grow up and leave home. We did everything together. I cared for her 24/7, 7 day’s a week, whenever she needed anything it was mum she called for. I’m struggling with the fact that I can’t process her not being here with me.
I feel so lost, alone and just want her back. People tell me I’m strong!! Well believe I really, really don’t feel it. I’m struggling writing this, so excuse me if it’s jumbled up.
Every day I wake up, most day’s I don’t want to get out of bed, because I haven’t got Tammy (my daughter’s name) here with me. I just feel no one get’s where my head is at because they haven’t been through what I’m going through. Looking after someone for 36 year’s and then having it snatched away is soul destroying. She was my world and more. I could go on and on about her. Most day’s I don’t even want to be here, my partner gives me my medication daily because he’s frightened I might take an overdose. I just feel a broken empty mess and don’t know which way to to turn. I’ve attached a photo of Tammy also.
I also want to say in between the loss of Tammy. My Uncle passed away, also my best friend. Even tho I’m finding them passing away hard. Tammy’s death has hit me the hardest. I just feel it’s destroyed me.
Anyway to anyone reading this thank you and hope I’ve made some sense.