6 weeks ago, whilst on holiday in Goa, my partner passed away whilst laying next to me in bed. I could hear him struggling to breath, he had a heart condition but he had not complained of any chest pains, I tried to resuscitate him and so did the hotel staff and doctor but to no avail and I watched him leave this world in our hotel room. I was then interrogated by the India police and was made to feel like I had killed him. I couldn’t leave the country until a full post mortem had been done. I had to identify the body before the post mortem which involved walking past another body which was also being identified by their family. I cannot begin to describe the trauma I went through in India. Having to travel home alone, on a 10.45 hour flight, was a further trauma in itself. Having to deal with Christmas and the New Year brought additional sadness. Whilst this is, without a doubt the worst time of my entire life, I know my life has to go on, in what way I am unsure.
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That does sound really horrific and so much for you to cope with.
Sudden loss is such a shock but to have this happen away from home must have been so hard.
Yes, life goes on. The how, will happen naturally. I look back and see how much my life has moved on and changed, with not much thought from me. The days keep coming whether we want them to or not and slowly we move forward with the days.
Just take it an hour/day at a time and look after yourself.
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@Diane964
Oh heck Diane, that is a truly awful experience. If you survived that and got yourself home alone and survived Xmas and new year then there’s no doubt you’ll make a future for yourself but as Ali said there’s no hurrying it, take it steady, small steps.
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