My husband died in July after a 3 month illness. We were on holiday in February, looking forward to another holiday in May to celebrate our Golden wedding anniversary- instead he was in hospital and had been told he had terminal cancer. I feel like my whole world has come to an end, every day is a battle I just miss him so much, I feel like part of me has died and I don’t know how to recreate myself as a whole person. People have been so kind to me but are now beginning to get back to their own lives and I feel so lost. I talk to him every night and cry myself to sleep, will this pain ever ease……
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@Burnsie66
I’m so sorry for your loss of your husband. Your post could have been written by any one of us. It is quite normal to feel all those things.
I lost my husband in late August last year. Like you I don’t know who I am any more and I don’t even really want to be the person I’m going to have to be. The future feels such a heavy weight to bear.
Other people on here say it’s possible to manage in the end. I’m nowhere near that yet. I think for most people it takes a lot longer than our culture can accept.
I’ve tried to make sure I recognise for myself any little achievements I manage, to try and build my confidence. And not to expect to much at once. The tiredness is so deep. So just congratulate yourself for day to day stuff.
I’ve found the forum really helpful, hearing from others experiencing similar emotions and reading all their thoughts.
You’ve found a safe space here where people get what you feel and no-one expects miracles or change to happen anything other than gradually.
Thank you for your kind thoughts, Sarie, I suppose it helps in a small way to see that I am not alone in the pain and suffering I am going through, I hope you find strength to get though your grief too 