Big hugs to you too x
Puzzles & crosswords make sense. I find that although I can’t stand noise now I need to always have the radio or tv on even if I’m not paying attention or following what’s going on.
I’m also watching any gentle programmes I can like Outnumbered, The Detectorists, Derry Girls. Things that distract me from my thoughts. Mum loved the soaps & true crime so I keep watching those too.
Can someone bring you to your first counselling session? That might help a little as in you will know if you don’t like it or it triggers you they are waiting outside for you.
I’ve registered for counselling not because I want to talk to a stranger about the worst thing that’s ever happened, nor for validation that I’m normal for feeling like this but because I’m assuming they can help me find a way to process my anger & guilt. I’ll never be ok that mum is not around but I’m hoping eventually I will no longer feel like I died that day too. I miss laughing. I can’t remember when I last laughed.