Hiya im dawn nice to meet you all …. I lost the best mum in the world last November to cancer now it’s just her anniversary death im finding so hard it’s my birthday on the 2nd of Dec it would of been my sister on the 8th I lost she I was 25 im 57 now plus coming up to Xmas we always went to mums for Christmas and I can’t this year im finding hard to cope since mum died ive basically stayed in my bed and locked myself away I can’t stand the thought of going out my front without going to see my mum I don’t see one person to the next I feel so along I need to give myself that kick up the butt to get me going again but I don’t have the energy im that depressed im hardly doing anything apart from watching tv all day every day I just don’t know what to do im tried of hurting i just wonna be with my mum I know I can’t because of my daughters it’s them are the only I keep living but there both old enough but the way im feeling do I really want them to feel the way I do now NOPE I just don’t know how to get myself out of this rut im in
Hello Dawnf,
I’m so sorry to hear about your mum.
Whether it has been one, five or ten years since the person you’re grieving for died, coping with a death anniversary can bring about new feelings each year. You might find our support page on coping with anniversaries helpful to read.
If you need any extra support yourself, we’re here to help. As well as the community, we also have bereavement support information, Grief Guide and our Grief Kind spaces. You can find out more about our bereavement services at sueryder.org/support
Another good place to get support is: Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing 
Take care and keep reaching out,
Alex