Hi … first time here… i lost my baby dog rudy recently… i had to decide to set him free from his pain and suffering… irs 19 days since that day… i don’t understand what im feeling. I hurt so much. But its the feeling of guilt that i didn’t see how much he was poorly… im questioning myself that i should have known. And a feeling that he was sad that i didn’t see it all i see now is him suffering this is breaking me … i feel im ok then it floods. Me … i talk about him but feel im burdening ppl… its just when i say he was my absolute world and we was never apart im not exaggerating… this feeling is overwhelming … i don’t know how to feel. Ive never ever felt this intense loss and im worried it won’t ease … i feel i let him down … only weeks ago he was Playing eating and here with me… where/how do i find some sort of comfort… this pain is to much… i don’t even know if this is what I should do on here i just am so lonely…it was just him and myself every day
You did not let Rudy down, you helped him, you got the pain stopped.
It is hard, I have been there with my dog Tigger, my wife held him as the vet eased his pain. Remember the happy walks you did with Rudy.
Hi Abi
So sorry about your dear Rudy. He’s beautiful and you certainly didn’t let him down. You set him free from his pain to soar high. I would strongly advise you to contact the Blue Cross pet bereavement line. They helped me when my beloved Patterdale terrier Toby had to be put to sleep due to canine dementia. I just wanted to explain to someone how guilty I felt and they listened, understood and gave me advice. It may help you untangle the knot of guilt you are carrying. After 7 months I felt able to bring another dog home, a border terrier Archie. Above all try to remember the happiness Rudy brought you, it’s such a precious memory.
Hi susie thank you for your message of support… i did call the greif line this morning after hesitation… but im glad i did because as you probably know its difficult to talk with our friends as we feel that we are burdening them but more so the ppl on the other end of the line are there for the sole purpose of our situation . I could carry on writing but maybe another time again thanks for your reply take care xx
