It has been just over 6 weeks since I lost my wife at 66 years of age just retired in April after working 50 years of her life. It was not expected and happened in the early morning on our grandsons 12th birthday when her artery dissected.
We would have been married 45 years last week and 48 years together. She was my wife friend and rock. We came through many trials and tribulations.
I am inconsolable and miss her so much my heart pains me. Life will never be the same again. She was a gentle, selfless, compassionate loving soul who would brighten up any room she walked in. Made people happy and was a good listener. We loved music and dancing. My emotions are all over the place. Crying every day travelling to work, at work and coming home from work. Not a moment each day goes without tears. I miss her calls, I miss calling her, I miss bringing her flowers and chocolates, I miss her embrace, I miss her laughter, I miss walking our grandchildrens dogs with her, I miss everything about her. So many things we did not tick off our bucket list. Taken too quickly. How will I ever come to terms that she has gone.
Some comfort I can take is that as Christians she is in the arms of the Lord and in peace until we meet again one day. Grief is very tough when you lose someone you have loved and adored since the day you met.
I am sorry for your loss. I hope in time the memories will not pain you but will make you smile and laugh. There is no timescale for coping with grief and it is important you take things at your own pace
Thank you for your kind word’s.
Sending hugs i think we all need its 6 weeks today for me. Xxx
You are very very early on in your grief, you are probably still in shock and all the admin and organising is hard too.
It is terribly painful, the heartache and that hard lump in your throat and chest is dreadful but you need to cry, weep, moan it all helps you to heal.
When you first wake up you will relive the horror every morning, the disappointment is immense you have been cheated and all the feelings you have are completely normal and as horrible as they are we have to go through it and accept the pain of the grief.
Grief is painful because it is our lost love, you will always miss her and grieve her but time does heal and you will build your life around your grief but for now you will feel that it is the end of the world, you will wish it was the end of the world but it isn’t and little by little things will improve.
I am 12 weeks in, which is also early days but I promise you I was where you are now and everyone on here was and little by little, tiny steps at a time we do start to let life back in and move on , but will always carry our loved one with us in our hearts and minds.
I wonder if you can take a little time off work to grieve and gather your thoughts, your GP would support you with this. Accepting the pain of grief is how we heal and you need to got through it. X
Big hugs and thank again for your kind words. I am finding it hard in my loss. Keep strong yourself too.