Loss of my son

This is my first Christmas without my son who passed suddenly 22/01/22 last few weeks I have been having panic and screaming fits like the day we found him ? Today we took a Christmas tree to put on his grave where family and friends put a memory on it broke my heart to think he’s there freezing cold without me xxx I’m getting worse as more it comes to Christmas what can I do to help myself

Dear @Jacci
I am so desperately sorry for the loss of your son. All of us on here know well the unbearable pain that you are suffering. You keep screaming and crying as much and as often as you need. My son and I swear by letting everything out. My husband died 4 weeks ago and my 3 children and I have held nothing back. Have you had a talk with your GP to see if he/she can offer some short term help over the Christmas period? I think a lot of us are dreading Christmas without our loved ones. I panic at the very thought of it. Please don’t put any pressure on yourself. Do what you want when you want. You DO NOT have to conform. Big cuddle to you xx.

Thank you I have been having some sort of. Counselling but it’s all online chat. I’m on medication as can’t stop crying etc was dealing with it ok until 2 weeks ago then Christmas hit us and bang back into sadness he was only 31 and has a 4 year old daughter it breaks my heart he won’t se her again x

This is my Christmas without my son, he was only 24 years old.I visit him every week and feel the same that its freezing cold
Sending you my love and strength x

So sorry for your loss but good that we can all tell our stories and we all wish they was with us at Christmas x

It helps as other people have sympathy for us but don’t understand x