Hello, I don’t really know why I’m sharing this, firstly I’m so angry, my nephew passed away 
, we still don’t know what happened and it could be months befor we find out. So we are going ahead with the funeral in a couple of weeks and I’m numb, I’ve never felt pain like this in my life, when I got the news it completely broke me and I ended up having a heart attack a couple of hours later. Everyone keeps saying that he’s gone and I have to think about my recovery now and I get it but I will never be the same again, my grandad also passed shortly after and I’ve barely given him a second thought, the guilt I feel for this is crippling.how do you get over something like this? I can’t imagine it will get any easier, they say time heals but I feel like this has changed everything.
I am so sorry to hear your sad news. I don’t think you can ever be the same again after these things but am hoping you will eventually find comfort and peace.
I am so very sorry for your loss and subsequent heart attack; that is a huge amount to be dealing with.
My circumstances are similar; my eldest nephew died in December very suddenly, unexpectedly and a superfit 32 year old. We don’t truly have answers on why yet either, if we ever will. It’s absolutely broken me.
It will feel less ‘raw’ in time but you may still feel the anger and pointlessness, I know I do 6 months on.
You are not alone. Your feelings are valid and they may come all at once or in waves. I certainly can feel everything (or nothing) and it can be so variable day-to-day.
Try and sleep (if you can), eat well (if you can) and look after yourself too.