Hi he was autistic and constantly anxious and high blood pressure but never accepted help from anybody xx I felt guilty for not being there but he had a massive blood clot to his brain so nothing I could have done even as an ex nurse . I have walked and cried and ended up in our fav place . Take care bless you
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Hi it’s just 12mths since we lost our beautiful son Jonathan he was our only child and our world the day after his birthday on the 7th Jan my husband had a stroke because of the stress I try to lose myself in a book or do a jigsaw anything not to think my heart breaks every time I hear someone has lost a child please take care of yourself I’ve been referred to community solutions by the police who found Jonathan if you have one near you they do everything I’ll be thinking of all the mums and dad’s who have lost a child in Christmas day sending you all my love Jonathan’s mum Linda
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Oh bless him.dont know why all these things happen they just do . Thoughts with everyone xxx
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AHHHHHHHHH!!! That is a virtual scream. Felt sooo desperate to scream out load today, but what do you do ? Swallow it instead !
In the beginning I screamed out load into a pillow , let it all out, then had a sore throat for a week and a croaky voice . So this is what it has come to , a virtual scream . 
oh dear what can you do?
Sending love to all Jss xxxx
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Dear Anne,
I’m so sorry your son Scott is no longer with you. He looks so carefree and vibrant.
Isn’t this time of year a magnifier for everyone’s loss…
I’m sending love and hugs
Purple xx
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Hi Deborah
Christ some people!! Sending love. No one but no one can understand or feel the loss we have to endure.
I find it incredibly difficult to say out loud that I lost a child. Plucked up the courage the other day to tell a new neighbour…I got a bit tearful…she immediately said ”how did he die
I was taken aback but I explained Henry had poor mental health and on top of his prescription drugs he used recreational drugs…she said “oh”
Not sorry…or how awful…nothing but oh! Then told me all about her friend who lost her daughter to cancer. Yes, that’s awful and that poor woman lives without her child.
I still live without Henry….he was so kind and gentle…he’s still my son…my loss isn’t any less. 
Wish to God I’d told her to eff off…
Sorry- had to share.
Big hugs
Purple x
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Hi all,
A few weeks after Sam passed, my friend Helen took me out and we went into Wilkinson, I just stood there staring into space and this man and his wife wanted to get past never asked or said excuse me…but I turned at that point and he had a go at me so I screamed at him I wish it was you that had died and not Sam. My friend got me out of there…some people have no idea. Yes Purple he is your son, always will be, you should have said to her f off!! Sometimes it’s all they understand.
Love helen
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Yes last weekend I was so upset as it was Dawns 5 th anniversary , and no one in the family all weekend did not contact us . So I put something on Facebook , I know I should not have done it . Next think I had a phone call from Sarah husband saying I have now upset her again , he said you do realise she has lost a sister , and I totally lost dreaming , shouting , crying and in the end said well we Jane lost a f “king daughter . So that was the end of my relation ship with my daughter . . I do regret what I said , but I was totally upset at the time . Grief is so so hard it brings out the worse in us . Because we are in so much pain . I totally understand everything all mothers do to try and get through life . Love to all Maddie xxxx
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Dear Maddie
Bless you…don’t blame yourself for doing something you thought was right at the time.
People don’t understand…if you’ve lost a child it’s the absolute worst loss…it’s not a competition either so your grief should be respected.
Christmas is making everything worse for us all…as if it could get any worse…brings our loss into sharp focus…
Love and hugs to you
Purple x
Dear Maddie
Thank you for your lovely text message. I did take note and took myself off to bed. Don’t look back on what happened, you were upset and rightly so. Think about your lovely holiday with John. Dawn will be with you.
Ive just been to a mediumship evening with Martin Hopgood, nothing for me but he was incredible. Something happened to me during the week and when I spoke to him about it he said it was very rare to experience it. Kathryn visited me while I was lying in bed, I felt her presence. There was a shaking of the bed and then this incredible feeling of heat which went up to my heart, my heart then flipped and I felt this amazing feeling of pure love as if angel wings had enveloped me, it was so beautiful. He said that is how he feels when spirits are near. It was so uplifting to know that she is with me. I keep asking her to do it again.
Deborah xx
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Dear Deborah, What a lovely experience. I am sure that Kathryn was close and you must be so receptive to her.
xxx
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Dear Purple,
I am so sorry that vile woman upset you with her cruel response to you telling her the worst possible thing a mother ever had to endure, the loss of your beloved Son Henry, she must be a cold hearted cow, it doesn’t matter how our children were taken from us we have all suffered the same loss no one’s pain is any different to any others and only a parent who has lost a child could ever know how we feel, sorry to go on but I felt so cross for you having to go through that, I wished I could give you a hug 
let’s hope she never has to join us on this journey sending you much love Michelle xxx
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Dear friends, it so awful to hear how we are all suffering just now. Some of you have had to endure recent anniversaries and at this time of year its even more painful.
I have been dreaming about Lisa so much recently. Mostly lovely dreams of going for lunch or shopping together.
Other times are nightmares where she is being pulled away from me crying .
It’s so hard living without our children. Always the ache in our hearts, the yearning to hold them close, never goes away but we are left to carry on without them.
We will get through another day, week or years. Just one foot in front of the other.
Peace to you all dear friends.
Kate xxx
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SO so saddened for you 18 years now iv no idea how I got to here think it was hubby helping me along the way now he’s died 3 month ago how will I do it now I think I love him dearly he’s my soulmate my rock life is empty just going through the motions of everyday life eat because I have to drink water to help with head pain watch the clock go by this is about it and this is what’s ahead for me for however long I stay on this earth I pray for all you moms who lives this pain
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I am so sorry for you loss of you soul mate Anne . I know my husband has been my strength since my son passed . Please remember we are all here for you at this sad time xxx
Hi Ajth so saddened hearing of your son it’s unimaginable pain I know it’s like a part of you died yourself It’s still so surreal at times I look back I can’t remember the person I was before our tragedy tore my world apart iv had specialised child bereavement our son was just 23 his life taking away from him it took many many years before I came to any expectance that he’d gone then my partner could see how I’d been affected with assorts of problems he learnt to understand me on a level no other could do I now am grieving my partner life’s simply stinks for some please take care of yourself 
Oh Anne,I am so very sorry for the loss of your darling husband , as if you have had not suffered enough over the years already, and now to have your soulmate and rock taken from you. I hope that you find the strength and courage to get you through.
I will be thinking of you, take care of yourself Marinaxxx
I have been an end of life nurse but It didn’t help when I found my son he was 31 . Be kind to yourself and take care xx
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Hi marina thank you for your kindness at pressure I go through the motions eating drinking water sleeping basically staying alive so others don’t need to worry about me
It’s so awful when my family call me if they catch me when I am unconsolable they may say what’s wrong or you know Dave wouldn’t want you feel this way
The fact is I do I don’t wish to but I do
Over the years after our son died iv actually been told I enjoy the pain as if I didn’t I’d let it go that was my eldest sister doesn’t know the meaning of compassion but thank you and you take best care you can of yourself too:star:
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They need to walk in our shoes to understand the pain we feel.
With love, Kate xx
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