Hi Maddie you are going through a rough time so emotions are hyped up an awful lot . Please don’t feel like your going on we all know how you feel on here so are here for you whatever you feel xx
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Thankyou aAtth. For your kind words s . Maddie xx
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Oh Maddie as if we don’t have enough to deal with! I’m sorry that Sarah is not being more understanding. I hope you hear from her soon. Much love to you 
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Hi everyone sitting here staring at sams picture it just dont seem real .i want pics of him everywhere .but my partner is different . Ive gone through lots of your messages some have been here along time .some short .but we are all in this sad horriblel loss of our children place .life is just wrong to hard .im so sorry to everyone .im just heartbroken sometimes its to hard . I go over and over the four months my brave boy .its just so wrong hugs to everyone zoe xx
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Dear Zoe, my heart breaks for you as it does for everyone here. It is very early days for you and I promise you the pain does get easier somehow. I was a mess for 6 months after I lost Gemma, but somehow I calmed down and even felt a kind of peace some days.
I still have my bad days and my very sad days when I am so tearful but they become less frequent. Wishing you peace. Much love to you xxx
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Hi Zoe , I am here in my bedroom with photos all around of my son , a candle burning by one that’s next to his ashes which are not going anywhere until I go to. I to have been going through the last weeks and the day it happened all the time thinking of things I should have noticed, done differently . The more I keep thinking the more I find to beat myself up about. I know your situation was different you and he knew what was happening. He was being so very brave but It all must have been so difficult for you both to deal with.
I went to town yesterday and so many people seemed impatient and bad tempered , and I just thought “ you haven’t got a clue how lucky you are” but maybe they have their own problems.
I have a key ring with a photo of my son in it , have you thought of doing that . It’s there in my bag and with me when ever I go out , would your partner object to that do you think?
Love jss xx
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Hi victoria thank you for your kind words and your support.it just hits you at any time .thank you for your kindness ltake care zoe x
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Hi jss i hope in time the four months that we new about sams cancer.become less in the forefront of my mind .all the bad bits .should i have done this .or that .even through sams pain he made sure he see jesses boys and little girls he bought them all a big presents. He stayed in hospice for three weeks to sort his pain and as mad as it sounds we had lovely days in there but on 2nd april he decided he want to be home because it was teddys birthday he gave them all there presents .uncle sam was there super hero he saw them every day .its so hard .i have got a big picture of sam in ftont room and his ashes .ive just hD rings made for me and jess with a bit sams ashes .i hope i get comfort .the hospice gave us all little hearts sam used to hold one it with me always .sam died at home which was a blessing he lov ed his home . I know jess people hav ent got a clue. People make me angry sorry ive gone on .hope you can find comfort jss .this is a horrible place to be .we just want our babys to walk in . Much love zoe x
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Yes , they will always be our babies no matter what age they are 
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Aww Victoria
What a beautiful young woman, it hurts my heart to see photos of everyone’s children, all with their hopes for the future and enjoying their lives 
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Aww Maddie
Your Dawn was gorgeous, she looks like such a lovely young woman, my heart breaks for your loss.
Sending hugs
Anne x
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Dear Zoe
I also lost my son when was 25, I’m tearful looking at your lovely son as he reminds me so much of my Scott.
We should have our boys still with us
Love Anne x
I came across some photos of him on nights out with his friends recently enjoying his life to the full as they still be doing x
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Dear Anne,
Such a lovely looking young lad taken far too soon, he will always be with you 
sending love and strength to get you through these next few weeks my friend
Love Michelle xxxx
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Though our children may not physically be with us anymore the precious love and the beautiful memories are in our hearts always and no one can take them away.
A lovely photo Anne so much love and happiness in his face, xxx
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Hi anne lovely photo yes they all had there whole life ahead of them .it dont make sense how weve all ended up here .sending you love and peace xx
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Hello Zoe and all of us on here,
I have been reading all the posts, and thinking of you all and yes they did have their whole lives ahead of them. Sam was like Scott loved going out with his mates. he also went off travelling where he met Mathilda, he worked his way around Australia, Thailand, Cambodia Malaysia, and most of Europe.
I miss him so much, Im sat here now writing this and I have Sam’s glasses on they are a lot clearer than mine.
Love
Helen
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This was taken in September 2012 when we went to see Sam and Mathilda, they lived in Btomma on the outskirts of Stockholm, in the November he came home to tell me he had been diagnosed with a brain tumour.
love Helen
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Fabulous photo Helen, a wonderful memory to be cherished. On the other hand, we think of what should be and can’t be. It seems every memory has two aspects. On the one hand happiness, love and pride while the other sadness, sorrow and anger.
Grief is the price we pay for love
Thinking of everyone
Love Chris xx
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Aww Helen
Gorgeous photo, so much love and happiness.
How devastated you must have been, I’m so sorry.
Anne xxx
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Those words are so true Chris, we should appreciate true happiness whilst we have it and not when it’s to late.Unfortunatly our downfall is that we take to much for granted. xxx
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