Oh Zoe my heart goes out to you. This journey we are on is terrible. But never forget that we are on the journey together.
I can hear your anguish and wish I could make things better. But we are listening and sending you love xxx
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Oh victoria thank you so much .its one of them aWful nights cant .stop the thoughts or tears .your up late xx
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Hi Racy, thanks for your kind message. Iām sure you are doing a great job finding your way through the pain, Theo would be very proud of you. Sending love and hugs xxx
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Hi Zoe, just reading your message and it is so, so tragic. You are such a brave person to go through all that and Sam was so lucky to have you as his mum. Donāt ever think you didnt tell him how much you loved him, your actions and care you gave to him proved your love, Im sure he was very proud of you as you were of him, he does indeed sound like a superhero who will live forever in your heart. Take care, sending love and hugs xxxx
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Hi Mattās mom itās lovely you have the courage to go on someday s I feel like I canāt go on no more but I also have other daughter s and a brood of grandkids plus my partner but sometimes I feel heās not supporting me as he should or maybe he is but my emotions are way overwhelming I canāt notice it Iāve not posted much the last couple of days I thought we was going to loose my little pug luckily heās ok after days backwards and forwards to the vet. Iād have been heartbroken my dogs are my company when my partner is at work and they know when Iām upse and crying itās so hard someday s when you get that awful despair feeling that comes over you and you canāt shake it off anyway I hope you all keep posting and supporting each other so we can get through each day XX shellyanne XX 
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Hi Zoe donāt ever feel like your rambling. Youāve lost your boy and your angry. Iām the same Iām angry that they didnāt help Leah more she was in agony with liver metastases stage 4 and they put her on fentanyl in the end Iām still angry I could scream at anybody and everybody my emotions are so strong and overwhelming I canāt control it someday s I feel I canāt go on then I have to pull myself together so donāt ever think you are on your own we are all on here to support each other. Lots of love shellyanne XX
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Dear Zoe,
You are so kind to everyone and supportive , no matter how down you are 
never apologise for rambling, this is why this site helps us so much because we can come on here when we felt at breaking point and share our thoughts and feelings and truly know everyone gets it, we are all here for you always, keep fighting Zoe as Sam is always with you and am sure so very proud 
Sending love and hugs,
Michelle xxxx
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Dear Shellyanne,
Thank you for your kind words I hope my posts didnāt upset you as I know your precious daughter should have graduated recently and I felt heartbroken for you, but I know you felt comfort when they called out her name and cheered this is a vile journey we find ourselves on but thank God we have each other and our other children as without this I donāt think any of us would be here. I totally understand about the love from your little dogs, our dog is 13 and has Myloma she is struggling but still with us, she is like our therapy dog I know you wil get what I mean, in the early days having to get up and walk her kept me going, I dread the day we loose her but know Matt will be waiting for her
Sending you much love
Michelle xxxx
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Dear Susan,
I am so deeply sorry you are going through this 
Your son will be so proud of you with all that you are going through you still find it in you to send comfort to others when I first lost Matt I would read the posts but waited months before posting, I wish I had done it sooner and Iām so glad you have, as now we can help you and be with you every step of the way, sending you so much love and gentle hugs to help you through this awful time
Michelle xxxx
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Hi Michelle, thank you for your kind message, its just so tragic we have all found ourselves in this terrible situation. We have all lost that which is most precious to us and it is so cruel. Iām sure all our lost loved ones are proudly watching us just as we are so proud of them.
I was just reading the other messages, its nice that many of you have dogs, they can be such a comfort. I have a 17 year old terrier and she has been a great source of comfort to me the past couple of weeks.
Take care everyone, love and hugs to all. Xxx
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When Christian died he left behind two beautiful dogs (Fred and Ginger) and it was these little beauties that helped me to get through the first twelve months of losing Christianā¦all I wanted to do was to sit and cry but I knew they had to be walked so everyday without fail we used to go down to the sea and walk and walk never noticing anybody or anything just tears running down my face, but after a while I found I was looking forward to these walks and actually starting speaking to people we passed on the way, I have so much to thank these dogs for they gave me hopeā¦But two years ago they both died within three months of one another I was heart broken firstly for losing them and it seemed like I was losing another part of Christianā¦Life can be very cruel as we all know but somehow we manage to find the strength to get through it and carry on with life though it can never be the same as it wasā¦Marina xxx
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They went together to join Christian. Theyāll all be waiting to see you again. Love Ann
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Dear Annā¦I sincerely hope so itās this thought that keeps us all so strong and being able to cope with life no matter what it throws at usā¦Take care Marina xxx
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Dear friends, hope you are all doing OK.
Itās been a bit of a roller coaster for us. The anniversary on Monday, the joy of having wonderful friends in the village and one sent me a beautiful bright bouquet which lifted my spirits. Another friend of 28 years was renting our cottage this week. We met when she fled north from Yorkshire to her parents here in the village with her 5 year old son. Her ex husband had put her in hospital on several occasions.
Although she has now remarried and lives in Harrogate. They are very happy but my husband Alan said he still sees the pain in her eyes. People say that of me too, I guess all of us here are the same.
So, on Tuesday our German pointer who has had a bulgy eye for a few weeks was back at the vets as, although it had improved with antibiotics , it was now looking a tad worse.
She had a scan yesterday and sadly itās a tumour behind her eye. She is 13 and looks like a 5 year old dog. Fit and strong and the sleek body of a classic German pointer. Itās such a shame but we are doing nothing about it. If she starts to show signs of pain or starts fitting, we will know itās her time.
Phew! What a week though.
Love to all, Kate xx
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Sending love dear Kate and thinking of you at this rough time. Hope your lovely dog isnāt suffering. Ann xx
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Dear Kate and all friends, we all seem to ride the roller coaster more now. Our grandson, Gemmaās eldest, still has the cat that his mummy bought for him 15 years ago. He loves him so much and he also has a tumour behind his eye. But like you, he has decided to watch and wait. Another link to his mummy so sad for him.
I hope you all have a peaceful weekend and manage to find happy moments. Iām helping a friend sort her house out after moving!
Much love xxx
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Thankyou. She isnāt just now but we will see. I looked up about holistic treatments for cancer in dogs and they recommend high strength Tumeric. As I already take these myself I am putting a capsule in her food. We shall see!
Love to you
Kate xx
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Hi Kate, When Fred got cancer I gave him tumeric and cannabis oil and he was good for another two years, so hoping it as a good effect on your darling dog ā¦Marina xxx
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Thatās what I needed to hear Marina. She is a beautiful dog and so slim and fit. All our dogs are the correct weight. The vets are always impressed with their condition. I know the effect Turmeric has on myself so hereās hoping!
Much love, Katexx
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Hi, I have been reading your messages about beloved pets. My terrier used to sit with my son Niall when he was troubled, she was a great comfort to him as she now is to me. It is so sad when they get ill/old. I have heard good reviews of cbd oil. Thanks for the info about turmeric, I will try it on my dog, she is 17 and deaf and blind but still a great character. I hope the treatments work for your pets, please let me know how you get on. Love to you all, weekends are difficult. Sending love and hugs xxx
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