Grief and bereavement is not a stranger to me but the loss of my sister is a whole other battle. My sister was murdered by her ex husband in a public parking lot while she was on her lunch break. She lived 4 hours away from where my family and I lived and we weren’t sure we were going to make it in time to say goodbye. I was in shock for days but honestly the worst part is when the shock is over and reality sinks in. It’s been almost a year since she has passed and I still find myself getting triggered by the most simplistic things. I grew up thinking I would have the rest of my life to spend with my built in best friend but that got taken from me. I feel alone as my partner has never experienced grief and my family has so much drama. I feel I have nobody to talk to who can relate or even remotely understand the grief I am experiencing. Not only did I loose my sister but a month later my soul dog had to be put down and 6 months later I found my grandma passed away in her bedroom, and this was just in 2025 alone. Like I said grief isn’t new to me but I can’t seem to get passed the denial of losing my sister.
Hello @Pmcc_12,
Thank you for sharing this with the community. I’m so sorry for the loss of your sister in such traumatic circumstances. It also sounds like you’ve been feeling alone in your grief, which can make everything feel even more difficult to cope with.
It’s really common for people who have experienced violent or sudden losses to still feel triggered by simple things and to feel like it still isn’t real, no matter how long it’s been since their loss.
As well as this community, we offer a range of online bereavement support services that might be helpful to you. You can explore these at sueryder.org/support.
You might also want to reach out to SAMM - Support After Murder and Manslaughter. You can call them on 0121 472 2912 or text 07342 888570.
You might also find it helpful to read our page on losing a sibling.
Please keep posting if it helps, and know that you are not alone.
Take good care of yourself 
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your sister in such a horrible manner.
I hope you can find some comfort from this group.
What a truly awful thing to have happened.
Please take care of your self