Tomorrow will be my sons birthday 7 months after he passed don’t know how I’m going to cope today was his daughters first day at school and that broke my heart all the things he’s going to miss I feel like screaming but don’t have the strength tomorrow is going to be so so hard.
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Hello @Jacci, I am so sorry for the loss of your son. I hope you have some support around you to help you get through today - we are all here for you too.
Take care
Seaneen
I hope you muddled through the horrendous pain of your sons birthday .
The celebrant said we have a year of firsts wwhich takes us back to day 1 each time.
Love from a mother who cant cope with her grief either x
I am so sorry for ur loss. I also have my sons birthday approaching however it has been 10yrs since I lost him. All of life’s milestones he will not be there for will never change. It just becomes a wound that doesn’t heal but u do get better at dealing with it. Allow yourself to have ur feeling and not feel guilty. Seld care is not selfish x
Dear Jacci
I’m so sorry you’ve lost your son. 
I lost my younger son Henry in October 2019 - fifteen days after his 30th birthday. He’s a Dad too.
I am already anxious about October- my bad month.
It does become a pain that you learn to manage- that’s the best I can say. I found meditation extremely helpful in managing the panic attacks. But at the beginning it was horrendous so my heart does go out to you.
Keep posting here…loss of my son aged 27…is a good thread with many of us parents posting there.
You can say what you feel- we all understand and you’re not alone on this journey.
Sending you love and a hug
Purple
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Hi Jacci
I am so sorry for ur loss. It is good to know u r not alone. I feel the loss of a child is such a horrific thing to experience that there is no word for it. It doesn’t matter whether it’s an adult child or a child. Other people don’t seem to understand from the moment u find out ur pregnant in that instant u have all these hopes, dreams etc for that child and where they will go in life. After they r gone u still have all those hopes and dreams but now u know they will never be fulfilled. I also use meditation, smiling mind is the best I have found to help me. My son was 18 driving to work when he was struck by a truck. His whole life ahead of him and then he was gone. The grief of the life he should have lived can’t go, as his siblings move on and his peers. His father goes and lives thousands of miles away. I am the only 1 whose life has not moved on.
Sending love and hugs to everyone in this position x
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