I recently lost my best mate, soulmate friend and partner…
We had know each other for 16yrs and been together for 10 of them16 wonderful yrs…
He was my rock on many accessions and picked me up off the floor when i needed it …
He was the only person in this world that really knew me.
Even tho we were a couple no one on my side of the family and friends know im gay…
This week has been so so hard as we had his service on Tuesday, i feel so empty and aline sometimes…
I do have his family to talk to but they live miles away…
I just dont know what to do sometimes, like now while the football is on tv, he would be looking at me over his glasses while reading his book, as he wasn’t a sport man…
Finding it really difficult at the minute…
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I am so sorry for you loss. Losing a partner, a soul mate, your other half, is soul crushing. You are among like-minded and lost people here. We are all grieving someone we love and can never replace. We are all grieving the loss of our future, the loss of being a couple.
Take each day hour by hour. That is how I make it. Yes, empty is normal, as is numb, sad, tired, forgetful, confused, anxious, depressed, sleepless and feeling physical pain in the chest. We have your back.
It is difficult times. You will make it. We all will. In the meanwhile, we just survive.
Much love.