Lost and depressed

I lost my mum back in 1986 when I was 21. She was only 42 years old and I couldn’t believe as I had to make sure my dad was alright. Fast forward to 2017 and my dad passed away in Turkey on the first day of his holidays. I had to sort all his stuff out down in Tavistock and then come back up to Dumfries. Then I lost my mother in law and my father in law.
To top that all off i lost my 18 year old dog… My heart is shattered and now in 2022 I feel the same now as I did in 1986 when I lost my mum. I have buried all my feelings and I know if I let my guard down i will completely crack up. My husband is fantastic with me. I now suffer with clinical depression and fibromyalgia. I feel like I am dying inside and I cannot get out of this big black hole i have fallen into.

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Hello @Janey124,

I can see that you’re new here so wanted to thank you for bravely starting this thread. I’m so sorry for all the losses you have endured. It’s completely okay to feel overwhelmed by all these things. You are dealing with a lot and it’s understandable that sometimes it gets too much.

I want to reassure you that you’re never alone - there’s always someone out there to support you.

If you feel like you’re in crisis and need some extra support outside of the community, I would encourage you to reach out to one of these organisations below who can help you stay safe.

  • Samaritans are available 24/7 to talk about anything that you are worried about in confidence. You can call them on 116 123.
  • Shout are contactable by text, 24/7. You can text SHOUT to 85258 and talk to them about anything.
  • You can also find your local NHS urgent mental health helpline here.
  • If these thoughts of suicide become too much and you’re worried you’re going to harm yourself, please call 999 or go to your nearest A&E.

We also offer free counselling at Sue Ryder, if you feel some one-to-one support might help. Sessions are held with specialist bereavement counsellors via video chat. You can also make an appointment with your GP and ask to be referred to counselling or other support services in your area.

You’re not alone - take care,

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Hi Janey

I just wanted to send love and hugs your way and to say that while I can’t take your pain away I care. I hope that it helps to know that even though we don’t know each other that there is someone out there who cares and is thinking of you.

Take care and be gentle with yourself.

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