We lost my beautiful mum 3 weeks ago to cancer. She went from a vibrant, healthy 70 year old to passed over 18 months later.
We had to watch her decline and we helped her through her last hours which was heartbreaking.
Even though we knew she would only be with us at most a few years after the diagnosis and she couldn’t do all the things she used to do, during the 18 months, it is still devastating when they leave you.
She was always there for everybody and she was like a best friend as well as a mother, grandmother, wife, sister and aunt. She was like a mother to so many people including my wife and my friends. It is devastating that we will never be able to see or talk to this person who had been in your life since you were born, I’m 49. I have so many emotions - guilt at not spending more time with her, anger at why she had to be taken away, sadness, numbness, pain at the way she suffered, emptiness, the list goes on…
It does help to get these words out. Thanks for listening.