Hi everyone, I lost my Dad 2 weeks ago in an awful road traffic collision. He was walking and he was knocked down by a car. The shock was awful and I’m struggling to comprehend that he is not here anymore. I have this constant anxious feeling and almost fear however there are sometimes where I am ok but then it hits me in waves. Can anyone else relate? Does it get a bit more manageable with time? Can anyone share if anything helped them overcome shock? I keep replaying that awful night in my head over and over and I’m struggling to not think of it.
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Hi @Heather_28 I’m so sorry that happened to your dad, that’s truly awful. I wanted to let you know that I can relate, I often get flashbacks to the awful traumatic times at the hospital with my mum before she died. I don’t know if it gets hugely better in time, as it’s only been 3 months since my mum passed, but I will say that I wake up thinking about those images less, and mostly just focus on the general sadness of it all. It does as you say come in waves though. I’m not sure that will ever stop. Sometimes I’m right back at the hospital and it’s all so crystal clear. But sometimes when I distract myself, it feels much further away. But the sadness stays. That will never go. Sorry I can’t be of much more help, but I understand how you feel and you’re not alone in your grief x
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I am so sorry for your sudden loss. The shock you are experiencing is normal. My dad was supposed to have more time with his pancreatic cancer. He died suddenly in hospital of sepsis and rapid deterioration in the cancer.
The pain comes in waves I still have flash backs of his final moments but they have got less frequent. Sending hugs and thoughts at your very stressful and painful time x
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So sorry to hear about your Mum, the flashbacks must be very traumatic but thank you for sharing. It’s just comforting to know you’re not alone. It can feel a very lonely place at times trying to find others who can relate to you, so thank you for reaching out.
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Thank you, so sorry to hear about your Dad. It’s so difficult isn’t it? One moment you could be ok, and the next you’re not and I find it really difficult to manage but I know that I’m not alone. Thanks for replying, it means a lot to know that someone else can relate.
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I’m so sorry. Such an awful shock and it’s no wonder it replays in your mind. 
I get flashbacks to how my dad was treated at the hospital. I think it happens no matter the way they leave us, but more so when it’s very sudden. Emotions are all over the place at first. The worst thing is to get stuck in your head with the endless loop of thoughts. Talking about it can help a little, so keep talking here and if you have people around you talk with them.
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@Heather_28 Sorry to hear about your Dad & the tragic circumstances. My Dad died in hospital in March on the day he was supposed to be discharged. I’d gone to check on progress & walked in on him dying. The early days of grief are horrible as you try to process loss. I’m 9 months into my journey & I have days differing wildly in their intensity. I’m more anxious now & a forever changed person but I’m stronger than I thought. Unless someone has been thru it, they won’t get it. Everyday feels like Groundhog Day, where just for a second or two, I think it was all a dream. Take each day as it comes, don’t look too far ahead. Warmest wishes to you. Xx
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So sorry for your loss I too feel like I’ve had a bad dream but when I wake it hits me all over again I lost my mum 7 weeks ago and although we knew it would one day happen as she was on borrowed time she never had as long as we were told and she was gone within 12 weeks of prognosis. Talking on here has helped a little not to make sense of everything as I don’t think I will ever get to that point but to just talk to someone who is also grieving and know that I’m not alone just keep talking and we will listen x
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First of all I’m so so sorry for your loss. I was exactly how you are now, it takes time but for me it did get better. It’s always there but not as often, you do get a break. It’s still raw for me so this is why I av signed up on here. 21 months on the 21st Jan but as you say you keep seeing that night and I was the same. It will ease but for me it hits me now an then an I break down to pieces. Just try and stay with your love ones and get things off your chest. I feel better talking about it. I watched my dad take his last breath after dying with cancer. I struggle with that vision to be strong, some days I am an others I’m not. I was always getting me phone to go and ring my dad and it use to hit hard. But now with a bit of time I don’t do that anymore. So what I’m saying is things do get easier but it’s a very slow process. Keep fighting 
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