Xmas eve 2019 my dad was taken to intensive care, 3 month later he was home and doing well livkdown happened and seeing my mum and dad was hard video and calls was all I had
He was getting better and all seemed well and doctors were happy with his recovery and he was my old dad again.
in May I had a call to say he has had a very bad bleed in the brain and there was nothing they could do.
Because of the 2019 hospital my mum couldn’t cope with the phine calls so put me as next of kin. this didn’t change and when we were told nothing could be done j had to tell them to turn the life support machine off.
I found and still find this hard to deal with.
I feel like I have killed him, he survived intensive care in 2019 why couldn’t he survive this , I know the illnesses wee different.
I am struggling and cry everyday and blame myself.
is this normal