Feeling lost, lonely, sad and in pain after losing my Dad 2 months ago. Can’t seem to find any motivation for anything, don’t care about anything and feel like I’m going through the motions every day. My poor partner is trying but I get so angry with him as I feel he just doesn’t understand 
just don’t know how to cope with this feeling every day!
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Hey @Pink_lady , my heart truly goes out to you and I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a big hug. I lost my dad 6 weeks ago and the pain is unbearable. My partner tries too, but he frustrates and angers me as he’s not great at understanding what I’m going through or thinking before he speaks. I’ve started to come to terms with the fact that he’s never been through a loss like this before, so I can’t expect him to…or hope he’ll understand fully. I tell myself I’m so glad he isn’t feeling this pain, and it makes me feel less annoyed when he says something stupid or insensitive. I’m stuck in a dark hole at the minute that im desperate to get out of so just on here every night looking for advice on how to cope and start inching forward. I think I need to find a councilor soon as my mental health is declining daily. Im doing all the things people keep telling me to do, but they’re not helping. Dads ashes are coming tomorrow and im devastated. I wish upon wishes that I’ll wake up and this has all just been a horrendous nightmare.
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Hi @Pink_lady
Im so sorry for your loss. Its coming up to a year since I lost my dad. Those first few weeks and months were horrible. I had never felt so alone and lost. Even just having a shower was an effort. I was so tired and I hadn’t even done anything.
I agree with what Peppermint has said and I don’t think you can truely understand what grief is like until you have experienced it yourself. I was like that myself before I lost my dad.
There is a text message service on here which I signed upto and have found really helpful. They text you twice a week with some lovely messages which made me realise, along with this website, that was not alone in what I was feeling.
Take care
Vicky x
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Hi, I lost my Dad 2 months ago too and feeling exactly the same as you - just existing. Always tired. No motivation. Friends who have lost parents themselves tell me eventually your motivation comes back but I just can’t see it at the moment.
I relate so much to every post here, it’s been almost a year for me and I clearly remember those early weeks of horrific agony, exhaustion, loneliness & disengagement. All I can say is just keep going from day to day. You’ll feel certain it won’t ever change, that it’s different for you, but eventually you do begin to engage with the world again. It’s not the same as before, you’ll never get “back to normal”, and the sadness is always there. But you’ll have happy days again. You’ll enjoy things. There is a very slow healing process, but just don’t expect to ever feel as you did when your loved one was here. Everything has changed now. We’ve changed. All we do is adapt. And it’s a hard, slow process, but you’ll do it. Don’t give up.
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That feels like I could have written that about my partner, I then find in having guilt over how I am treating him as well so all the feelings are very overwhelming. Hopeful that having this community will help find others who feel similar. Thank you for the digital hug same back to you xx
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How do you sign up for the text message service?
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Hello @Pink_lady,
I think @Vix1 is talking about our Grief Coach text service. To sign up just fill in our online form and you’ll start getting text messages right away, tailored to your circumstances. It’s also totally free.
I’m really glad to hear you have found Grief Coach helpful, @Vix1 
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Yes this is what I’m talking about xx