Hello @LOWTHER, I’m so sorry for the loss of your father- that is devastating. Sadly, many of our members have experienced the loss of a parent and will understand some of what you are going through.
I wanted to share our support page on How long does grief last? which can walk you through some of the feelings you may experience in these early days and beyond.
You might wish to connect with @Laurenbeth88 who also lost her father very suddenly and recently: Dad died
I really hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care,
Seaneen