I lost my husband one month ago. He took his own life after struggling with depression for most of his life, but particularly over the last six months. We were best friends and had utmost respect for each other. We are/were both in our early 30’s. He was a beautiful soul, sensitive and intelligent, full of empathy and super talented. So much to offer the world. We tried to get him all the help we could but we had to wait so long for the right therapies. Even after being in A&E in December, the ‘ongoing’ support was completely insufficient for his needs. I miss him so much and I held hope for him. I just can’t believe it’s actually happened after all this time - every day for the past few months I’ve wondered “will today be the day”… “what can I do to help him today?” … “what can I do to help prevent him getting worse?” … and of course it was still such a shock when it happened and I found him. I was always hoping we would find a solution and he would make it through his pain successfully. He was so strong, and thankfully he was honest about his struggles. He fought his depression bravely and with dignity. I am SO disappointed that it’s come to this. I am lucky to have supportive family and friends around me, and have sought professional help, but I am COMPLETELY devastated, heartbroken, shattered. He deserved better. How can this be happening?
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I am so sorry . You must be in deep shock . I’m glad you have good support. You did everything you could to help him . Take each day as it comes . Be kind to yourself. My loss was a big shock too but a heart attack . My sympathies
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Thank you for your kind words. I am sorry for your a loss and for the shock of it too. It is so difficult.
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Coriander
You’ve been living with daily stress and fear for quite some time , and now the worst thing has become a reality , what a shock . So very sorry to hear of your suffering .
Get the right help and support for you now .
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