My husband 55 passed away from stage 4 plasmablastic lymphoma.
I nursed him through treatment we was told he had a few months he only had few days.
Ii was 18 when I met him we have 3 adult sons all amazing Nov will be 25th wedding anniversary he was not just my husband he was my best friend together 24/7 now he’s gone I’ve never felt more lost and alone.
I sometimes think it would be easier to sleep and hope I don’t wake up
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Hello @Tinabell79,
I’m part of the Online Community team and I can see that you are new to the community - I’d like to thank you for bravely starting this thread and sharing how you are feeling. I’m so sorry to hear about the loss of your husband. Most community members have sadly experienced the death of a loved one and so will understand some of what you are going through.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support. In the meantime, you may wish to look at these Sue Ryder resources which might be helpful.
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through.
I really hope you find the community helpful and a good source of support and I also hope you feel you can access more support should you need it.
Thank you again for sharing – please keep reaching out and know that you are not alone.
Take care,
Alex
Dear @Tinabell79
I’m so sorry for your loss. I can feel your pain through your words.
My 52 year old husband passed away in his sleep in March. To say I’m devastated is an understatement. My world has been shattered. Similar to you we were together 24 years.
People say “Well, at least you have your son.” Don’t get me wrong, I am lucky to have my son but the relationship you have with your partner is completely different. The decisions you make together, the inside jokes, facing the future together…all that has disappeared.
You are likely still in shock so please be kind to yourself. The world probably seems strange and you may be feeling completely numb. For me, it was only until Month 4 that I began to face reality that my lively husband was not coming back. Everyone’s grief is different so getting counselling, when you’re ready, will help.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this.
Take care.
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Hello Tinabell79
I hear you and understand how you are feeling. My husband passed away July this year. Mark died just one week after diagnosis of Leukemia. We also have 3 adult sons. Although family and friends are supportive, i just feel like i will never recover from this, the shock and disbelief. The everyday sadness and fog that i am walking through.
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I’m sorry I didn’t reply sooner was having problems with my phone.
I’m sorry for your loss