I would like to say Hello to anyone reading this and to share my experiences with you. I am grieving so deeply for the loss of my husband of thirty years, 10 weeks ago.
I am not sure how I should be feeling at this moment in time but the loneliness I am experiencing without him is like nothing I have ever felt. Every so often I have an overwhelming feeling of the reality of losing him. it comes in waves and I say to myself " oh my god, he’s dead, my husband is dead".
I just can’t believe I have to spend the rest of my life without him as he was my life. I feel there is nothing else.
I am 64 years old and in good health so what I should be doing now is confusing to me. I gave up work to care for my husband as he was very ill for three years. I have no close friends as it was always myself and Ian. I do however have family, but I am unable to share my grief with them.
For me the future looks very grim without my beloved husband by my side.
Does anyone else feel this way?