I lost my Husband Edward 7-1-25 n the sadness is at moments suffocating. Just dont know how im supposed to do this, i miss him so much n not sure what to do with all this time, i spent the last 3 years caring for him n now i feel i have no purpose
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Edee so sorry your struggling. I lost my husband on 11 January and am also finding it really difficult. As you say what do we do now? For some unknown reason some days are worse than others.
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Edee I am so sorry for the loss of your husband , I understand you feeling a loss of your sense of purpose .
As couples we have plans for the future and losing those plans leaves us a bit lost .
My wife passed away just over a year ago and she had just retired so we had many plans and it’s so hard to deal with the loss of that future .
Caring for our partners probably takes more out of us than we realise , so I would imagine you are exhausted too .
Do you get very much support from family and friends ?
I find coming home to an empty house is the hardest thing for me .
Am considering voluntary work as a means to finding a new sense of purpose
Best wishes xx
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Hello Edee
I am in a similar situation and on a similar timescale. I only wish I could say something to help but I don’t think anyone can. The only thing I can say is that you are not alone, the way I have dealt with my loss is to get out and meet people. I attend bereavement meetings once a week with other people who understand. Other things that I do help for a short time and stop you being alone with your thoughts. I do not know how long this journey will be but my heart goes out to you.
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Hi Edee,
I am so sorry for your loss and your feeling of lost. I have the same experience as you.
My hubby’s cancer got worse in Dec 2023 Xmas time exactly. I looked after him since with my disablility. I tried my very best to help him and I often feel a wee better when I think I spared him from suffering by caring for him 24/7. I told him ‘just stay with me’. He said ‘I try my best.’ His last words to me was ‘sorry and thank you.’ .finally he passed away in Sept 2024. I feel my world is collapsing.
I have been crying almost every day since. This morning I felt aimless and down. I just had a huge cry and felt slightly better. I do not consider to hurt myself. but I do wish I never awake when I go to bed.
We looked after a cavapoo Alfie when we were bother healthy. My hubby knew how much I love him. He asked the dog’s mum 'please do not ever stop taking Alfie to Sam. ’ Alfie’s mum generously gave Alfie to me on my hubby’s funeral. Alfie now is my soul mate. He makes my life routine, makes me laugh, gives me cuddle. I eat and sleep with Alfie, He is my huge comfort - a gift from my hubby and generous lady.
I do not know your age. if you are young and still have energy, you could consider to have an active dog, If not , an easy dog. The dog will make your life goes on track again, and give you purpose of some kind.
I miss my hubby every day every moment. When I look at Alfie, I can see my hubby, because he is what my hubby wanted me to have. sorry I am crying again…
Please visit this site when you feel down, this is fantastic place to be. People are understanding, not judging, and supportive.
Hope you’re able to cope, find your feet again… Huge hug xx