My dad died when I was a baby so it’s only ever been just me and my mum-
I was her full time carer since I was 15. We spent every day together and spoke on the phone up to 10 times a day when we wasn’t together.
She was like my sons second mum and it was I like us three in the end .
In January this year she was diagnosed with Neuroendocrine cancer and it spread rapidly and took her July 11th (my dads anniversary)
I have been struggling with my my talk health- anxiety,panic and fear of medications for a few years now and I’ve become worse since mums gone- I now haven’t left the house in three weeks which has been horrible as I have a seven year old (he has gone for days out with he’s school friends so he’s done a few fun things over the holidays) but I feel terrible they weren’t with me.
I’m crying non stop,feeling light headed,sense of doom, sick, getting mouth ulcers, I feel like I’m going crazy and I hate waking up to the same pain everyday