Lost my mum while on holiday

You touch upon an interesting point there that I hadn’t really given much thought to.
When we are close to those we love and see them all the time, we don’t really notice changes over time and so probably don’t ever think that someone may have aged faster in the last year than previous years. My mum did slow down in recent times but that was just put down to age and the fact I walk extremely fast! Looking back through photographs is interesting though and a reminder that they were young and fit in past just like we hopefully are today. It’s when you look at that photo from when they were your age, which is never really that long ago, there is a realisation of how short life is!
Those why’s just don’t stop do they?
I can imagine myself being resistance to accepting something is wrong and then telling others not to worry. Human nature I guess.
Maybe if I’m lucky I will be healthy or at least able bodied until I drop down. Good for me, not so good for my family. I really don’t know what’s best, there probably isn’t a best scenario for all concerned. I hope one day I can stop thinking about death!