It has been just over two weeks since I lost my mum. She was diagnosed with terminal cancer on the 25th March and she passed away on the 30th March, in the early morning. I have only just been able to type this today, let alone say it out loud. I feel so lost and broken and my goodness, I miss her so much.
I keep reliving the days leading up to mums passing during the day, in my sleep. I just can’t stop the tears.
Hello Gemma, You hardly had any time to process your Mum’s diagnosis and then the lose of your Mum. It is very early days. You were totally unprepared and no doubt in shock. My Mum died unexpectedly in October on the day that she was due home from hospital and deemed medically fit from discharge. I was in a terrible state. All I did was cry for the first few days and talk about what happened over and over again. I was full of guilt. I never thought it at the time, but it does get easier, but you won’t be able to even imagine it. I still miss my Mum and have triggers and cry. I still find it surreal and can’t get past the call that I took, but I am functioning. Make sure you eat and do whatever feels right for you.
Hi there. Thank you for your message.
I think thats one of the things I can’t move past at the moment. Diagnosed on the Wednesday, talking about getting her home on the thursday and Friday with palative care. Then Saturday we were told she won’t make it till monday but if she did it will be to a hospice. She was 67, I thought I had more time. Then she’s just not there anymore. I kind of feel like my brain has still not caught up even though I’m going through the motions.