I lost my only child Michael on May 28 2024 in a motorbike accident. Noone knows how it happened not even the police, all they could tell me is that he wasn’t speeding, they checked the road and the bike. He died at the scene, I never saw him again. I feel like it happened yesterday, like my heart has been ripped out, I cry every single day and panic that he’s not here, we were very close. Every day I feel like I’m trudging thru treacle getting nowhere. I’ve had depression for 16 years and now I have anxiety, don’t want to leave the house. Just feel like life isn’t doable
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Dear Malteselover,
I can understand exactly how you feel. I have lost my only child too. The only respite I get is when I’m asleep. From the moment I open my eyes all I can think is Dan is dead and it stays like that all day.
I force myself to do things to just get a few moments break. I try to concentrate on the task in hand. If I’m ironing I look at the creases. If I’m washing up are the plates completely clean and at least for that minute I can block it out.
I make sure I leave the house every day, even if it’s just a small walk. I have found that helps.
I want to die and be with him. It’s only having 2 elderly Westies that stops me.
People have been buying me memorial items which I hate. I know they want to show they care but I wish they would ask first.
My son’s condition was life-limiting and every time he lost a friend he would say he would have to keep fighting on. I am trying to do that too but it is so very hard.
Am sending you love and wish I was there to comfort you.
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