I contacted samaritans but i thought cruse was better but i suppose it depends who youre talking too x
It does. I also spoke to someone lovely at Cruse.xx
Isnt it weird when someone is nice to you ,the tears start .Or is that just me ? I had counselling today and she must be sick of listening to me crying every time she speaks to me . Was talking to a friend last night tears again. Today i had to hold them back with another friend .im a nightmare 
Well if you are a nighmare I am too. I thinks tears are healthy. Xx
Healthy and dehydrating 
i honestly didnt know i was capable of crying this much ,im 16 wks in
I am 10 weeks in and miss Kala so much after 38 years together. She treat me like a princess every day. I miss her and the life we had together. I cry alot usually when I am safe with friends. Xx
Thats a beautiful name . I cry more when im on my own but think im developing social anxiety because im on my own so much ,through choice x
Thank you. Do you prefer being on your own. I dont want another relationship but do need my friends.x
Im kinda the opposite 
At least you know what works for you. You sound very brave.x
Im not brave ,im just desarate for another life . Want to just drive away and never look back although realistically that wouldnt solve everything x
Unfortunately for me wherever I go and whoever I am with the grief is with me. I am guessing this is ni help though. Sorry. I hope we all find a way through.xx
I hope. This is a great site but would be good if we could actually aee each other ,is that weird . Imagine us all being in one room and having a rant and then crying . I have some weird thoughts ,sorry
Not a wired thought at all. Some of the sites have zoom meetings. So not beyond possibility. Xx
Sorry for your loss
I lost my long term partner recently.
I didn’t have chance to say goodbye to him or was informed for his passing and funeral.
It left me big gap.
I tried to contact his family I was told they refused to speak to me.
I am very depressed everyday.