My beautiful brave son Josh passed away 4 weeks today and even though he has 3 younger amazing siblings I just want to be reunited with my josh. This pain is unbearable and crushing me x
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I am so sorry for the loss of your son Josh. I lost my son James 18 months ago, suddenly and without warning. He was 31. I am further on on this awful journey but if i close my eyes and can be back to where you are now. I feel every bit of your pain. Take one day at a time, don’t expect too much so earlier. Be kind to yourself, you deserve gentleness. Please reach out, anytime xx
The hole is too big, isn’t it. I’ve wondered a lot the last year why we forge the huge bonds that we do with our children if it is to lose them. It feels like such a terrible waste. Like ‘god’ is the worst ever manager. Today (17 months in, approx) I’m just beginning to feel the truth that we are here to grow compassion. We can say no to the horror of losing our child (I’ve done so much of that) - in other words we can shut our hearts. Or (eventually, or for a few seconds) we can squeak out the tiniest bit of a yes and see what happens. I’m a relative novice in this hideous adventure - just trying to find what works. Yes breathe. Yes breathe again …
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