Hi everyone hope all is well, i loss my finacee two weeks ago and it still hurts every day though i still get up to go yo work, cook etc, there is an empty feeling that i have every moring and a feeling of emtrapment because ill never see him again and fear that ill never experience that level of love again, i found out through research that he had the condition he passed away from way before he met me and while we were together he was dying, he had such a rough life but through myslef and the children he found love finally, acceptence and happiness.
I appricate all he has done for myslef and Children and the time we shared, looking in hindsight he was only suppose to stop by to show me the true meaning of love.
I just want the anxious feeling to go away and to get back to feeling normal but i know i have to go through this phase and feel my emotions in order to heal and transform, i know he would not not want me to be sad all the time, he would want me to do the things we both planned to do together and solo.