I cared for my dad 87 he had dementia and in the end delirium which was hard I was the only one by his side as know one else cared.
Having to watch the process of dying and taking his final breath 8 weeks ago has broken me much more than I ever expected.
I had to make all the calls I had to arrange the funeral and finances.
I’m lost in a bubble I can’t seem to escape I can’t think about him without bursting in to tears my dad was my world and I wouldn’t go a day without seeing him now I have nothing.
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Hello @Heidi81,
Thank you for bravely reaching out. I’m so sorry to hear about your dad. You are not alone. I’m not sure if you’ve seen our Losing a parent category. But there you will find lots other members sharing their experiences of living with grief after losing a parent.
I’m sure someone will be along to offer their support to you. In the meantime, you might find these Sue Ryder resources helpful to read.
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Our Losing a parent page talks through some of the emotions you may be experiencing
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Our Grief Guide self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief
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Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through
I hope you find the community to be a support to you. Take good care and keep reaching out 
Alex
I’m so sorry for your loss @Heidi81 and for the lack of support.
I know exactly how that feels. I lost my mum last November, and I’m still barely able to function without breaking down. I had no support from my family - not even a ‘Sorry for your loss’.
Do you have a friend to support you? Or perhaps a friend of your Dad you can reach out to?
Hi. I understand your grief. I just buried Dad yesterday. Hed be 90 on the 20th. I miss him terribly. We nursed him at Home, for 6 yrs. He was my world.
He had cancer, then a stroke. The cancer returned,along with dementia too. It broke me to see my lovely, gentle Dad go this way,as he wouldnt have wanted to be like that. I too watched him suffer, but unlike you, i had my mum and sister there, to help,and im so sorry to hear that you had no other support, to help you with your grief, as i know how hard it was with even others there.
I thought i was doing fine, but today, not so good…
So i understand how you feel…
Please message, if you need to chat.