Hi
I have had the worst weekend ever i i thought it would get better when i got home frome visiting my stepmum with my brother who made my weekend so bad for me i have been crying ever since getting home all i wiah for is to be with paul all i want is him to make me feel safe and to cuddle me is that so wrong of me to want that , i wish i could go to the seaside and walk into the water and that would be it end of me but i am to.much of a coward.for that nobody would ever miss me as they would just think i did mot know it was that bad for her i only have two brothers and they would cope without me nobody needs me now so why not let me go and be with him i have no one to talk to at all , i have one nephew that will miss me but i cannot burde him with all of this anymore he does not need this at all i feel awful putting all.of this on here but i do not know where else to go i feel so lost and alone in all of this i dont blame people on here hating me as i hate myself