Nearly two weeks ago my partner died suddenly. I woke about 4am and he was having a seizure. I had to commence with CPR until the ambulance got here. Two of them in fact. I will never forget that morning for the rest of my life. Today I went to visit him in the funeral home. I’d been warned that he may not look like him. He looked like he was asleep. I have never felt so alone in the world. We did everything together. Out on the fells was his favourite place. He was everything we were. My safety my person at the end of the phone. My biggest fan. I still feel like he will come walking through the door after being away for business. I don’t really have a point to this post but I guess words are what we turn to. Xx


Dear @Kellymet

I apologise for the delay in responding. I am sorry to hear of the loss of your partner. Every post and comment here have a point and it takes courage to reach out, thank you for sharing your post which is not always easy.

One of the most difficult parts of a bereavement can be the feelings of loneliness that comes with it, nothing can prepare you for it.

There are some resources I would like to share with you in the meantime until someone who has been in the same situation as yourself comes along to offer their support. You can connect with members here by typing in the search bar.

  • self-help platform which has information, resources and advice to help you through your grief Grief Guide which will help you understand and cope with your bereavement and grief
  • Grief Coach text service, which sends you personalised text support via SMS for family and friends
  • Our free Online Bereavement Counselling
  • Our Bereavement Information pages which can walk you through what you are going through

Cruse Bereavement have advice on how to cope with the Loneliness . It would be worth having a read to see how it can help you.

I do hope the above will be of help to you. Please continue to reach out and take care of yourself. You are not alone, we are all here for you.

Take care.


Hi there Kellymet
My heart goes out to you as I well remember those first weeks and months. The day they leave us is a total nightmare whether it be sudden or a long term illness the shock is a tremendous blow. You have just started on your journey so there will be a lot to take in and there is little advice that anyone can give you as it is a lonely path we walk.
Those of us who lost our loved ones a year or so ago do find a way to get through it and although I won’t say time is a healer it does teach us how to cope and a sort of acceptance.
Keep with the forum as there are many who are suffering as you are and can be a comfort just to know you are not alone.

I am sorry for your loss.
Your post makes complete sense, that feeling of being lost. I still feel lost without my husband after so many years have gone by. I will always be lost until we meet again.
You have begun the hardest path there is, the one you walk alone, with an aching heart. Many of us are walking alongside, so though your loss is unique, you have fellow souls who understand.

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